weekend was well spent.
at least ii know ii am not at all coping well.

new year eve was spent chasing after the fireworks.
(and luckily, you arrived in time to pick me; and now ii am proud to say for the past 4 new years, ii have managed to catch the fireworks.) :D :D

ii like the way it is. simple.
the way we share toothbrush.
the way we held hands, the hugs & the kisses.
the way we (more or less) shut off contact with (more or less) the world.
the way we just lie on the bed the entire weekend, & watch VCDs.
the together-ness.
the simplicity.

ii love the swings. and the stars. & the soft sand.
荡秋千 helps me wash away that unhappiness;
and how it brought me closer to the stars.
it makes me less upset.

ii love the journeys.
from west to west to central to east, just so sometimes ii am less upset.

ii love the fact that ii always have a bolster to hug. (: (:
ii love the way reassurances are given, just so ii am less upset.


then again, ii am finding it difficult to handle what is going on.
sometimes, ii hate myself for being that intelligent, & sensitive to details.
ii know ii should believe the assurances given. yes, ii should.
ii shouldnt be that childish anymore. it's time to grow up & mature.

make me an angel tonight. take me away take me away take me away.