hello!
ii am so sorry this space is filled with unahppy stuff & emo stuff.
ii predict it will still go on for awhile. bear with me.
ii will be fine fine soon
den ii can buy stickers with smiley faces only, ook? promise. (:

blood blood blood test report is out.
and bloody hell, 5 jabs 5 jabs 5 jabs.
ii called in to ask for my results, & it's like so horrible lo!
the doctor totally say ii got NO antibody at all, not insufficient, is DONT HAVE. -.-
NO antibody = NO immune system. so ii will fall sick very very easily.
(count myself lucky that ii am not exposed to virus & bacteria) -_-"

you cant imagine the sick me right!
ii also cant imagine me whining all day also. HAH! (actually, mayb ii can)

so back to 5jabs. will be taking it as TanTockSengHospital SOON.
well, actually the 5 packets of m&m's for the 5jabs taken still not motivating can?
ii take 5 jabs in exchange for 5 pacs of m&m's. -.-

gastrics issue have been working out worst than before lately.
ii am quite used to the pain already actually. but well, still suck.

And for you, please tell me the truth. ii am prepared, ii think it cant get more painful since it's already that painful now. ii wish ii could vanish into thin air.
never felt this depressed in my 19years of life before.
ii think ii am losing my sanity, & all other motivations. ii am losing myself.