e.m.o

cant seemed to find any reason for the current state of depression ii am in now. ii have a fair share of life today. not awesome, but good enough. work was, as usual, boring. dinner was over at alan's, where his girlfriend has prepared steamboat & all. mini b'day dinner ii supposed.

yesterday was spent, er. doing shit work. but ii, too, have a fair share of fun. met up with (zhaohua, mohheng, nat, ahdi, weilong, jackson etc).

so this is prolly the reason why ii cant find a reason for the state of depression ii am in. did a lil' reflection on both days, couldnt find any practical reasons. but probably, ii may know why.

cant write it out explicitly. i dont know how. but ii feel, my life is messed up. maybe it has never been proper, since the day ii graduated from dunman; since ii started working with henry; since ii started the r/s 3years back. whatever it is, its dat period of time. life is missing something, & ii dont know what that thing is. but yes, ii feel empty. hollow. ii get this tinge of melancholy once in a while. weird me.

life feels incomplete. ii am not prepared for life.
(ii swear te person who msn/sms me "ii complete your life" & anything along this shit, ii am gonna block you!!)