"我很久没有看你穿裙 le hor?"
these were the exact words that came out from my brother's mouth when ii got home. And thinking back, ii have always been in shorts & tee since year one. like standard poly attire what. -_-"
been thinking a lot these few days. And probably writing is a good way to get it off my chest.
the question on whether leaving JC 2years back was a right choice still bother me till today. a lot, especially these few days. ii look at friends step into their university lives; and ii cant help but feel the tinge of envious hovering in me. not all are doing well of course, but majority of them are. And ii know, very well, if 2 years ago, ii didnt choose to leave, ii'll probably be pursuing a degree in business now. business - too general a word. ii know. at times, ii felt stupid. ii was being too impulsive, to wanna get outta tj at that point of time.
but then again, ii was studying something which ii obviously didnt express any interest in. And now, in SP, prolly ii enjoy myself better. ii struggle to pass subjects in tj, while passing is a breeze in SP. it occurred to me, whether, ixit an issue of difficulty, or a matter of interest? If ii am not interested in the course ii'm in now, will ii still be coping so well? den again, ii am not coping well. at all. year one passed, without attempting any tutorials, nor purchasing any textbook, ending up with sucky grades, that obviously couldnt qualify for uni?
this year ii am working hard (harder than year one of course). ultimately, ii wanna get into a local university. ii dont wanna go to SIM. SIM is like, ii know recognised, but everyone is saying "as long as you got money, can go SIM already". And it made me feel shitty.
*ii am not pin-pointing or discrimating against SIM or anyone, but rather it's my opinion.*
but at the very least, ii am glad that ii made so many more friends after leaving tj. new working experiences. new friends. new side of the world (the more realistic one). And ii am glad, ii get to enjoy my teenage life better. (: (: prolly, it wont be a wrong choice.
now ii know. it will only be a wrong choice, if ii didnt go into a LOCAL univeristy. (: (:
will & must start mugging on finance tomorrow. (: (:
P/S: am eating ben&jerry ice-cream now. will sleep soon!
