love isnt as beautiful as ii thought it'll be
And it never will be...
ii wonder how many times a day you've gotta be mad at me.
havent ii been giving in enough? each time you tell me you wanna see me, ii'll rush down to meet you.
each time, ii'll apologize and admit it's my fault even though it makes me feel like shit.
And at the end of the day, what did ii get in return?
Still being treated like shit.
S.H.I.T
monday
ii found out dere werent any more traces of me in your handphone. dere's only her.
ii left. wad am ii to say?
it hurts badly, deep inside, even though you tried explaining.
Zero amount of explanation will help. ii choose to believe wad ii see.
wad you've done, it's done. cant be undone.
once you chosen to love her, please dont come back.
once you hurt someone, you've hurt her.
once she cries, there wont be any point in wiping her tears.
once she chooses to leave, please dont come hurt her again.
tuesday.
being silly & stupid.
And thought that you wont upset me, ii went to look for you (again).
a call, and you got so worked up.
you ask me to leave, and ii did.
you never know how badly ii cried, and how ii felt.
wednesday.
you quarrelled w/ me over her (again).
3 days in a row.
ii've got enough. ii am choosing not to pick up your calls, not to reply you.
you dont know how hard ii'm preventing myself from accepting your call.
you never know how badly it hurts when you defended her & screw mde instead.
boii, ii wanna leave. let me leave.
it's hurting so badly, ii dont wana stay. ii wanna run away, to a faraway land, away from you..
you dont know how hard ii try not to cry every niite.
love. nothing but a word used to hurt, used to injure, used to lie.
still friends.
ii'm nothing to you.
but to me, you'll be still you.
take care. all the best.
