if only love lasts forever, and happiness eternity..

happy one month anniversary to the both of you. dis time round, you call the shots, ii'm given zero hour. have a great day with your beloved. today, you chose to forsake me. ii remember. you blame me for the mess ii created, blame me for the attitude ii give, blame me that you are meeting her. wad am ii to say when you're blaming me for everything?

first, ii was treated like shit, literally shit. it was only a simple thing that ii do, and ii could see you react so strongly, to appease someone who is a million times worst den me, since she's of zero standard. mathematics say when you multiply something by zero, outcome will be zero. she's nothing, AT ALL. yet today, ii gotta help you appease her, just to not wanna see you upset. when she gets mad, you blame me. for every little shit, ii'm blamed. ii apologized, kept quiet. dere's nothing ii can seem to do, except to let tears swell in my eyes and flow down aimlessly. blame myself for being stupid.

ii never understand why, things that you do are deemed correct and things ii do are termed "wrong", even if its the same things, or same rationale behind it. when ii say you meant a whole world to me, ii mean it, but you choose not to believe.

you dun have any idea how exhausted ii'm. no idea how upset ii'm. you only blame me for each and everything. ii'm learning now, to lead life on my own. ii'm learning now to stand up strong..

on a happier note, jeremy brother is meeting me for movie tomorrow! :)