fairytale: my world of denial
singapore: a city of practicality
(edited)
from today, "you" will be addressed as "him", for those who understand, good for you.
ii dreamt of him last niite. ii woke up with tears in my eyes.
ii cant remember what it's all about
ii only know it involves him
ii dont know why ii woke up with tears in my eyes as well
ii miss him.
switched on my lappie to see zero email from him
zero msn conversation.
even in friendster, he is no longer dere.
today, shuan picked me up to meet my two darlings in town for project.
chilled at TCC & did IDEAS project dere as well.
shaun is our photographer.
sarah is damn shocked to see me.
linda is damn concerned 'bout my wound, and she's scaring me w/ scars!
staffs at TCC were super friendly, and dere was a 20% discount for us. :)
it's a staff discount by one of the waiters dere.
ii bet he's interested in one of my two girlfriends. :)
after which, head to arcade at plaza singapura, before going down to FEP & DFS at orchard.
played my favourite cooking master. ii play for an obvious reason.
ii wanna play, to not forget it, to remember him; to make sure memories never fade.
at FEP, shaun bought 2 bermudas, 1 top & a pair of shoes for himself.
And ii got for myself 2 identical dresses: one black & one purple. :)
As well as a pink NIKE water bottle.
had dinner at WHISK restaurant at wisma, before cabbing home from cineleisure.
shaun wanted to get me a new wallet from GUCCI.
ii rejected his offer. :)
pass him 650bucks as well.
had a minor argument over this issue.
he still insist on getting me a wallet.
drop the issue with "ii like none of the wallet, we'll drop by another time".
ii dont wanna accept anything from him.
dont ask why, ii dont know either.
felt damn disturbed throughout today.
ii miss him.
ii know shaun is aware, for he asked me at least twenty times 'bout what's going thru' my mind.
And ii know ii sorta spoilt his day with all my responses.
ii seem oblivious to the world, today.
shuan, ii'm sorry ii screamed at you.
ii'm sorry ii'm always quiet.
ii'm sorry ii'm in my own world.
you told me all you wanted was to get me a proper wallet.
you told me you want me to move on, you dont want me to be upset.
you told me ii'll be happy.
you told me ii need not fear.
but but..
ii dont know how.
my mind is preoccupied with him.
ii know ii shouldnt be liddat.
life w/o him feels so wrong, still.
ii'm still getting used to life.
ii hope the him far far away is doing fine.
ii hope he is coping well with life.
ii hope at times, he still misses me like how ii do.
ii hope he is happy (with her)..
P.S: blog entry on him & her removed.
P.P.S: on a happier note, ii know GUCCI 's summer collection will have a lot of pink wallet, ranging from classic to leather to everything a girl will ever want. :)
P.P.S: my lower left jaw in hurting super badly. :(
