ii will learn to cherish, treasure, this & that.

many more todays to come! <3 <3

dear boyf,
firstly, thank you for the pleasant surprise + gift. (:

ii am super grateful ii have you in my life for the past 4-5months (or more).
& you only got even more special when we became official.

for all these while,
thank you for always being so ever patient & always giving in to me.
thank you for understanding me, & looking after me despite this & that.
thank you for respecting my space, yet trusting & loving me the whole time.
& of course, accompanying me to do silly stuff, & walking me there & that, & waiting for me to end class most of the time (since ii definitely end later than you!) :D

(& of all days, you got to fall SICK today! EVIL!)
boyf waited for me all day in school. waited for me to end lesson. waited for me to end my FYPproj w/ my group's client. waited for me to finish my selection interview; when he is so bloody sick. SORRY!

patient's food for dinner = healthy; but hungry (now).
get well soon, boyf! <3 <3

ohyes, same goes for me. ii <3 you too. :D

HAPPY BIRTHDAY
(sarah's boyf) ZACSON; &
FYPmate + GOODfriend + BRO, DERRICK!!
:D :D :D

(such such a coincidence, ii didnt even know both of them have the same b'day! And if ii wish only anyone of them on my blog, later another jealous. -_-" [eg. ii wish derrick on my blog, & not zacson, later sarahbaby complains.] so yes, there you both go!!) :D :D

fuck you. period.
you arrived on a wrong day.

of all days, ii got to oversleep today. no. ii shouldnt even oversleep.
and of all days, you got to screw me on the day my boyf doesnt gives me wake up call.

you screw my mood up.
you make me mad out of random, you make me emo.
you screw my diet up.
you make me eat instant & still feel hungry. ARGH.

you gave me one weird tutor today, who says ii am under-performing.
which totally demoralise me.
ii really shouldnt be a scholar. even good grades become bad, for so long it isnt 3.9. fuck.

you gave me cramps.

boyf isnt buying me (warm) soya bean.
And for whatever reason, ii am feeling down & tired & all.

now,
my only consolation is that, dad's picking me off work.
& mum was talking to me about granting me COMPLETE freedom. (:
& giving me an ipod touch! WOO! :D :D

having an 8-5 day tmr really isnt motivating.
And for boyf, 10am-10pm lesson. goodluck (like it helps)! -_-"
ii will wait for you at home ok (unless ii am going out)! (: (:

And,
it's holy crapp that ii am left with 20bucks till payday.
ii spend 50-70% of all my money on cab. cabbing becomes habit again. fuck.
ii dont know how ii spend my money, really.
ii havent been eating a lot, but my money is depleting like mad.

kind souls, please? POSB SAVINGS 209-23979-5. :D :D
LOL.

am feeling better now! :D
till work end & home & goodnights! :D

12.38am.
HOLIDAYS ARE OVER FOR A DAY NOW. BOO!

but this holidays, is probably one of the most awesome holidays ever.
mad meaningful. slack. free. relaxing. expensive. fattening. sinful. lovely. sugary.
fabulous. fantastic. and all the good words. (:

10 events to sum up my 6 (or 7) weeks holidays: :D :D

1. ii went to cambodia over a period of 2 weeks for OCIP.
mad meaningful! it was beyond words could describe, you really just got to experience it yourself! no blog entry on this cos’ ii honestly dont have much idea how to go about writing it. reflections are done at www.operationcambodiagr4.blogspot.com, you can search for my entry there (below reynard’s & dan’s). :D
learnt a lot. changed certain perspectives of mine. changed me; & my life.
loves the simplicity of life, & the kids! *misses*
loves seeing more smiling people, loves the companion, loves the people who went on the trip.

2. ii got into a relationship, after all the downs & downs.
w/ a guy who is mad patient, tolerant, smart, talented, caring, understanding, loving; he surprises me, he plans everything out for me, he keeps me organized. (:
& a guy who loves me with all of his heart. & healed the broken me.

 

3. ii embarked on a double date w/ sarah & boyf.
caught "HOW TO TRAIN YOUR DRAGON" in 3D together.
dinner. & pool.
sarah & ii gossiped & catch up; while we watch our boyfs play pool.
pretty awesome. (:

 

4. ii ate all the good food around. & steamboat-ed too too much.
boyf & ii only dine at foodcourt ONCE, maybe twice; or thrice.
sundays are always spent dining w/ boyf & his friends. (:
fattening + expensive.

5. ii attended my company's 10th anniversary dinner @Clarke Quay.
which also marks my first year as a p/timer in the company.
dine @Peony Jade Restaurant & ii swear it serves high quality food. (:
PartyWorld + (mad) drinking session.

 

6. ii met up with JER BRO over dinner one fine evening.
and we caught a movie together. was all nice scrolling home & catching up agian. (:

7. ii met up with gwee & sabrina, the pitch! :D :D
lunch @BreeksCafe & Kbox. (:

been so goddamn bloody long since ii last saw both of them.
nothing changes; but both of them become prettier, as usual.
we still have endless things to talk about. we are still the us we know. (:

8. ii met up with net & hiang over dinner @Sakae.
ii always thought my break-up would end the friendship & all.
but well, ya you know. (:

we exchanged gossips, caught up, ate & chill.
it felt heart-warming & stuff. they are all doing well & ii am glad for them.
gaotong will be out soon as well. good for choonhiang.
we talked about getting married, & ii was saying ii wanna their sister! :D

9. ii cut + dyed + treatment my hair.
back to bangs, & now, the colour of the hair is a tone lighter. (PS: I DIDNT PERMED LAH!)
still the ahlian look, but am not an ahlian. :D

 

10. ii met up with my favourite people @SPSP. :D :D
owen, yihao, jiahui + boyf; over dinner.

owen, became quieter, listening & lauging more now. :D
maybe his girlf has somewhat tame-ed him. :D

yihao, still that bird face + bully. :D
still as smart. always attempting to start "quality" conversations.

jiahui. still the dragonboat boy. but more ahbeng now.
got himself attached. :D

it was all nice seeing them again. see how much we have changed; how we all got attached; & how blissfully happy we are with life now; & watch how yihao whine about still not having a girlf yet.

the few main events basically sum up my entire vacation.
ii spent most of my time with boyf & his friends. mj-ing. movie-ing. etc.
ii like the feeling of knowing everyone is well & fine. ii like seeing how most of us are contented with our lives now. :D :D

goodnights all. bed now.
boyf will wake me up tmr.
4pm lesson, but off to school early to meet boyf for lunch. :D
maybe gonna dinner @newton with boyf & his bigbigbig clique of friends. :D

P/S: ii am sorry ii look hideous & crappy in some of the pictures. =X

ii wonder what's wrong with the both of us today.
you asked me if you are the guy ii want, & have ii found the right guy.
you asked me if ii am very happy w/ you.
you said, answer you really seriously & honestly.
because ii think each & everytime ii just joked about it.

now ii say.
ii asked myself once, twice, thrice. & ii dont know if you are the right guy, or the guy ii want.

ii came into this relationship knowing that both of us would have an awesome future together; knowing that ii found the guy who would do almost everything with me; & wouldn't argue with me; who would compromise & give in.

ii met someone who brings an umbrella to my workplace because it is raining.
ii met someone who brought me breakfast, when ii said ii was hungry at 3.30am.
ii met someone who never fails to make me wait.
ii met someone who will so definitely send me home each & everytime.

whether ii am very happy or not,
ii admit ii still do get upset & all over you-know-what, sometimes, maybe most of the times. ii argue with you when ii am in a bad mood, ii cry & every little piece of shit.

but most of the times, ii really am so so so goddamn bloody contented.
because ii have you, who always try to make me smile & laugh over the silliest thing possible.

baby, then what's more can ii ask for now?
but to say, thank you & ii <3 you.

that urge. that temptation.
ii am resisting it all.

but fact still remains a fact.
it doesnt change.

today is a happy day. :D BECAUSE:
1. ii did my nails! (MAINCURE + PEDICURE)
2. ii head down to twister@ TampONE & kason got me a pretty haircut! :D
3. ii PERMED my hair too. :D :D
4. boyf came down to pasirris to pick me home (& went home, instead of drinking). :D

**but complexion looks real screwed & crappy (refer to pictures below). need facial sooooonnnnn. PLEASE MUM? :D

tomorrow is a happy day too (ii think) :D BECAUSE:
1. ii am getting my hair dyed + treatment! :D
2. boyf will come find me in the afternoon after ii am done w/ hair. :D
3. meeting yihao, owen, poh over steamboat! BEEF GALORE!
(of course, boyf will join us for dinner as well)

MY NEW HAIRCUT + PERMED HAIR. :D :D

 

goodnights people.
gonna game now, den sleep. :D

*today refers to yesterday. tomorrow refers to today.
because it's fucking 1.30am now. -_-"

hello! am in a gooooodd mooodd today. (:
met up with best friends sabrina & gweeee over lunch & kbox. (:
another post!

got pissed w/ boyf earlier on, bcos ii thought he prioritized mahjong over girlf!
lately, ii think ii got stalked, & this fellow is scarin'/freakin' the hell out of me.
plus, it was raining super heavily. my slippers are slippery.
boyf knows, still tell me he cant finish mj, & ask me go home myself. -_-"
what the hell.

BUT BUT, is he purposely one lo! act dont care.
when ii exited office, he is waiting downstairs for me with an umbrella! (: (:
tried acting mad at him, but failed. LOL.
how sweet can this silly boy gets? <3

& more pictures from yesterday's meet-up. :D :D

extracted from net :D :D

 

the happy & eating people :D :D

our bigbig diet. :D:D

 

under-table scandal. :D
dat’s us. hiang. net & me. :D :D

till tomorrow! (:

 

met up with net & choon hiang at causeway point just now. (:
dinner @Sakae(buffet) + chit-chatting + chilling out was AWESOME. (:
havent seen them for a reallyreallyreally long time.

we talk about you, me, her, him, us. everything.
we updated each other about our lives & gossips.
we guess who among us will be married first.

& they made me realize one thing.
it wasnt as easy as ii thought it can be.
because it was the many things we once shared.

another sleepless night. another nightmary night. another moody night.
erase me off from those memories, remove that little box.
only den, ii will feel better. suck.
ii am doubting my own ability, not at all yours.

when you assured me all would be fine;
when you assured me that, me being happy was all that matter;
when ii fall asleep holding your hands, & waking up having nightmares;
when ii got upset & all, you said nothing but gave me a hug;
when you lead my life with me & share my dreams,


ii know you are making a difference to my life, & me.
<3

ii am sorry, ii still disappoint you so so much.
you knew how ii felt, you knew when ii got upset. you could read my mind.
most of the time, you know, but kept it to yourself.
sometimes, ii really hope you wont read my mind so much.

evil mood.
ii probably know the reason why. not revealing here.
did ii make a right choice?

maybe its just me. ii think it lies with me.
evil mood really isnt good. ii dont like that upsetting feeling.
it's just today. ii will wake up feeling normal, fine & happy tomorrow again. (:

goodnights people. :D
ii wonder the you on the other side, how are you doing today?
ii wonder if you have been fine. ii hope you have been happy.
sorry boyf.

am at work now.
& beside me, there's a cert, a cheque & 60dollars voucher. :D
this is the reason why ii love my job, & the company.
great perks, awesome environment & ii get to do whatever ii want. :D

ii am back in s'pore for 2weeekss plus now. & ii miss cambodia, still.
blog about it tonight; ii am gonna pick 12 pictures for the 12 days. :D
near 800 pictures now, really arent easy to pick TWELVE.

this week, ii:
went on a double date with sarah & boyf, boyf & ii. :D
attended company's 10th anniversary dinner (also mark my one year in the c/o). :D
chilled over at jianwei's place with boyf, darryl, ray & kooon. :D
mahjong-ed over at harry's place with boyf & kel. :D
[p/s: boyf, will you stop winning my money, please? (: (:]

next week & the week after next, ii NEED to:
cut & dye hair. yes, dye & cut. twister twister twister. love my salon + stylist! (:
manicure + pedicure. getting my nails done. (: (:
facial. needs to book an appt, & boyf must be busy. (:

mooney mooney. crapp, what's with having not enough money?!
ii wanna go get a new bagg. (:
ii want to buy ipod touch. ROARS.
ii need get my facial foam, makeup remover, DIY masks.

school reopening in 2weeks!
another semester to build on my academic portfolio + GPA.
& before ii know it, its gonna be university application. badd.
SMU? NTU? NUS? ACCA? OVERSEAS?

noway noway, ii dont wanna go SIM, MDIS etc etc, please?
ok, actually, ii wont. maybe SIM. but NOT MDIS.

boyf just told me he released a lobster that is as heavy as me into the sea. -.-
boyf, quickly quickly return to landd.
boyf, we can jog from your house to yishun dam.

boyf is picking me off work later!
simlim square to hunt for my earpiece first + check out ipod touch + find koon! :D
den dinner. :D

P/S: ii want breakfast tmr. (:
& holy, what a random post. till next. (:

P/P/S: wishlist updated. :D

loves the breakfast boyf got for me this morning. :D
And now, boyf is reminding me to eat medicine again. BOO!