[ ] ii wanna be the exception :) [:D] New wallet from COACH :)
[:D] Visit to yishun dam! [ ] Night picnic at henderson wave! [ ] Cumulative GPA: 3.5 [:D] DSLite [:D] Tote bag from m)phosis [:D] Nike windbreaker/Adidas jacket [ ] Tote bag from Gucci
[ ] LV speedy :D [:D] LongChamp Bag [:D] Coach Wristlet [:D] Grey pair of Haivanas from NUM [:D] Pass my BTT (16.04.09) [:D] Overseas Trip w/ friends [:D] Pass my FTT (21.05.09)
[:D] Green Apple Vodka
[:D] LG Crystal to replace F480 :D [ ] Aerocrombie & Fitch Jacket [:D] Sony T90 [pink] :D [:D] Davidoff Perfume :D [:D] Ipod Touch [:D] Xperia X2 to replace Crystal
[ ] Opps, NEW WALLET!
28.03.2010. we got together, after hmm. 4 months? so many people like the changed r/s status! *happy* a r/s looked forward by many of our friends. (: & ohyes, thank you for all the blessings given! because of all these blessings, we will last long! (:
& yes, ii am silly boy's FIRST girlf. (: (: (: *damn happy*
sidetrack: ok, actually ii just found out this silly boy has a crush on me since, last july? the time when owen, jiahui, boyf & ii work on our TWT II discussion together. (:
the four months, love story, another post, maybe (: (: but yes, all in all, in the past 4 months, he has proven me right that ii will be good in his hands. (:
for the past 4 months, he look after the very vulnerable me day & night, night & day. he took away all those unhappiness in me, transformed & changed me into a happier person.
when ii cried so badly, he gave me the assurances that everything will be fine. (: when ii needed someone so badly, he will always be here. (: when he knows ii can't be left alone, he came over to my place in the morning, just so when ii am awake, he will be around. (: when ii got wipe off by the damn medicine & fall sick, he was there doing nothing but watch me fall asleep. (: when ii wanna watch a drama/movie, he always have it streamed & prepared. (: when ii make him watch chick flicks w/ me, he never complains. (: when ii tell him of my cravings, ii always get to eat what ii want. (: when ii said ii wanted haagen dasz after ii land back in singapore, he bought it & brought to my place. (: when ii always forget to switch off the switches, he will do it for me. (: when ii complain of how slow my laptop is getting, he gets the problem all solved for me. (:
when ii felt bad after exams, he always tell me ii will get GPA 4.0. (: when ii am cold, he never fails not to give me his jacket. (:
for the four months, ii am glad, really glad ii have him in my life. he gave me a steady hand, he shared my dreams. ii fall alseep, & wake up, knowing my heart is safe. thank baby. (:
side side track: dinner with boyf after work last last night. (:
ii love my hair so so much, just like how ii love boyf! :D
boyf wrote that for me, before we got together. (: yes, boyf learns jap. (:
P/S: blog song updated – Today Was A Fairytale, Taylor Swift. (:
rant @ Friday, March 26, 2010 9:39 PM
a happy boy & a happy girl. an ordinary person who light up the world of distressed damsel. an extraordinarily smart person pursuing the same dreams as that of a not-so-smart. a multi-talented person liking someone who knows almost nothing. a gamer looking after the sick & worn-out. a boy sitting in front of the piano playing a song, a girl next to him. a freshie attempting to hold the hands of a girl.
the one ii woke up seeing everyday, & ended my calls last with everyday. <3
rant @ Thursday, March 25, 2010 7:12 PM
hello earthlings! all tags replied. some quite deep deep down, so you've got to hunt for it. (:
it has been a week since ii am back in singapore! ii will be doing my YEP reflections tonight, so expect a post soon on my cambodia trip! lots of photos. lots of words. lots of reflections. think it's gonna be a long long post. HAH! (:
schooling tmr. no. to submit my YEP forms. next week got post expedition activity (ii think). daniel isnt updating me! and after which, ii am probably done with entire of year 2. (: (:
results suck. but somewhat expected. nvm, GPA still goes up. (:
ITboy totally scammed me. he promise me the maximum attainable GPA is 3.99. but he gets 4.0. what the hell. hate you. BOO! -_-"
he spent six hours (or less) studying a module. ii spent 10 hours (or more) studying a module. he still do better than me! *screams*
but whatever, my defence is: BUSINESS COURSE IS SO MUCH HARDER!!
ok, random post. till the next post, ii hope it's on the trip. but no promise! (:
rant @ 12:06 AM
blog song changed.
chinese really isnt my forte. LOL.
ii think this song depict a lot about me, you, us, everything. reason for this song is also because it has quite a bit of significance to me.
was this the song that we first came across when we watch one of our first dramas? was it 转角 遇到爱? it has been three years. honestly, ii cant exactly remember.
ii promise. because ii dont want to hurt you any further. ii totally know it doesnt feel good each & every time you watch me cry. stop saying "as long as ii am happy, that's all it matters." it has been four months. four months. four months.
for the past week, ii really like the idea of waking up & the first person ii see is you. ii really like doing nothing but watching drama & gaming.
ii promise this will be the last.
rant @ Wednesday, March 24, 2010 1:14 AM
如果还有遗憾 又怎么样呢 伤了痛了懂了 就能好了吗
曾为他相信明天就是未来 情节有多坏 都不肯醒来
我的心深深伤过却不会忘 逃不开 爱越深越互相伤害 越深的依赖 越多的空白
我和他不再属于这个地方 最初的天堂 最终的荒唐
若那一刻重来 我不哭 让他知道我可以 很好
-丁当 - 我爱他
rant @ 12:47 AM
ii totally miss this mad awesome place. the place you learn about the simplicity of life & how to appreciate life better.
ii miss the kids. ii miss the french loaf. ii miss the chilling-out sessions back in the dorms. ii miss the people who went together as a team. ii miss everything back there. *screams*
opps. yes, ii have absolutely zero make-up on. ii hope ii dont scare the hell out of you people, for there's more coming! (:
rant @ Tuesday, March 23, 2010 11:55 PM
RESULTS ARE OUT LATER! ii am so screwed. ii have a feeling no more 3.8 this semester, which is badd. ): ):
this semester; too many things have happened, & ii am way too distracted. significant people have joined & left, leaving me w/ an impact so huge that it feels so difficult to digest & absorb.
so conclusion: no 3.8 for GPA; bad grades (equivalent to ii am screwed; or rather ii face the threat of being out of scholar programme) ): ):
---------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- whatever that ii am doing now. benefits me, you, him, her. everyone. probably the only way & the only choice, such that all of us can move on with the next phase of our lives.
my eyes are so sore now. ii havent been sleeping well at all. nightmares really aren't funny. ii woke up feeling scared & crying, & it's taking away ALL my sleep. ):
spending the entire night out yesterday was great. ii didnt have to try to tire myself out. and coming home this morning, ii could fall asleep so easily. (: but 4hours of sleep everyday isnt doing me any good! cant sleep for long thou', ii will have nightmares! ): ):
~ it felt like you are the knight in shining armor, rescuing the damsel in distress. (:
rant @ Monday, March 22, 2010 9:17 PM
today is the 22nd. the number still remains that significant.
been wearing specs out everyday. been going out with super light make-up everyday. havent been feeling good. been feeling horrible.
tempted to shut down this space. tempted to close my facebook. tempted to change away my msn. tempted to change my handphone number. tempted to change my house number. tempted to get out of this country.
tempted to run, run & keep running. if only, all these can aid those heartaches, ii would have gladly allow myself to escape & hide & never come out again.
rant @ Sunday, March 21, 2010 5:26 PM
OHYES, BY THE WAY, (minus all those angsty-ness & stuff), I AM BACK FROM CAMBODIA. but am missing the place really badly. ii know this might sound insane, but ii am thinking of going there to help after ii graduate. ii have fallen in love w/ the simplicity of life there! mad awesome! a proper post on this will be up soon. & photos will be up on facebook tonight.
And 9 running conversations. all trying to cheer me up. thank you! (:
was talking to zeke. den ii realised, 3 years of r/s, & ii lost my own identity. dat explains why ii cant be myself again when people ask me to. because exactly, who am ii?
rant @ 12:36 PM
maybe if you didnt teach me how to love, ii wouldnt be feeling so upset today.
but, maybe if you didnt teach me how to love, ii will never know what it is like to love.
有人说: 爱一个人多久, 就需要多久把他给忘掉..
rant @ 11:51 AM
ii feel tired. ii feel upset. ii feel horrible. spare me a happy pill, if even it helps. ;OR spare me a sleeping pill, & ii never have to face this harsh reality again.
ii am honestly too tired. ii dont know how to carry on from here.
but if people around me are happier this way, why not? maybe ii am just lousy at managing my life.
ii may have one of the best grades. ii may have meet the best people in life. ii may be blessed with all kinds of opportunities. but when it comes to life, ii think ii really suck at it.
ii try so damn hard to conceal. only to find myself breaking down time & again.
ii feel like digging a hole, hide my self inside, & never face the world again.
rant @ Saturday, March 20, 2010 10:58 AM
ii have removed the blog post. ii am letting it go, ii am moving on. dat's it.
true enough, ii felt really horrible this morning, maybe even now. but probably, a lot better now.
ii came back, knowing what ii want. to let go, & take you as a friend. but it is really harder than ii thought it is. when the truth hit right in my face, ii felt like running away. back to the orphanage, when ii did not have to face all these shit. boy, you know it, that feeling.
but for as long as you are happy, ii respect your choice, respect you. ii wish you all the best. be a happy guy. (:
And, thank you for all the messages sent to me this morning, asking me if ii am fine, & alright. telling me everything is fine, & finding ways to cheer me up. it was pretty stunting how you people come onto this space so quickly. but yes, thanks! georgiana is thankful & grateful. :D
thank you for coming down east to find me this morning. thank you for giving me the hug ii needed so ever much. thank you for lending me your shoulder to cry on. thank you for constantly giving me the attention, just so to check if ii am fine. thank you for sending me home, when you know ii was running a fever.
ii am really thankful that you are here each & every time ii needed you. thank you, till 44 movie stubs.
status: fever, 38.3degree celsius.
rant @ Saturday, March 6, 2010 11:45 PM
hello! EXAMS ARE OVERR! :D :D HOLIDAYSS ARE HERE HERE HERE. :D
now, ii am five hours from my flight. ii wont be sleeping, since ii got to start getting ready at 2plus. ii shall sleep on the plane for that few hours. :D :D
this getaway was something ii wanted for a really long time. always wanted to get out of this place for awhile. probably to recover from all those wounds, & pain & stuff.
to think about what ii exactly want, and face things which ii ultimately have got to face. handle them, & resolve them.
or not, ii will never be able to move on. ii will continue hurting people around me, & those who honestly cared.
this trip, ii will be away from civilization. away from the stressful nation of ours, and to help. makes more people happy, and see more smiley faces. :D :D
when ii am back, ii will come out to be a stronger person. :D
*ii hope the eleven days that ii am away, you will be fine. *ii hope the eleven days that ii am away, you will be surviving well. *ii hope the eleven days that ii am away, you will miss me like ii do. *ii hope the eleven days that ii am away, we know what we exactly want. *ii hope the eleven days that ii am away, ii will recover from those wounds. *ii hope the eleven days that ii am away, things change for the better.
**ii hope the eleven days later, ii will come back being a happier person.
NOW, till tweleve days later.. .~
rant @ Monday, March 1, 2010 11:43 PM
MCQ MCQ MCQ MCQ MCQ MCQ MCQ MCQ MCQ MCQ MCQ MCQ MCQ seriously, what is wrong with MCQs? why do ii always & forever screw them up?
ii feel like a joke. getting full marks for essay questions & failing MCQs. seriously, W.H.A.T. T.H.E. F.U.C.K?
it didnt happen once or twice. but ALWAYS happen. arghsss. CAN I PROPOSE TO REMOVE MCQ FROM EXAMS? WILL ANYONE KILL ME? ok, ii think everyone will.
ok, nvm. ii shall be less harsh and mean. accumulate good karma, and ii may get a better chance of hitting the 25% right?
ok, this will be what ii will do totally do. LOL. at least until end of exams. (: (: (:
ok, enough of my blabbering nonsense. for now, goodnights. be back tmr. :D :D 5days to flying- ..
