hello this space. (:
ii havent been to blogger for so damn blooody long.
been really really busyy & ii think it's a good distraction & divertion. (:

for the past 9 days that ii have been missing, ii have been busy with:
1. UCCD report plus presentation - cleared on monday (:
2. FMRP paper - cleared on wednesday (:
3. Technical Analysis - cleared on friday (:
4. Vacinnations at TanTockSeng - cleared on thursday
5. OpsCambodia GrpBonding
6. Suppers & Gatherings
7. Mugging & Shopping
8. MA2 proj [status: still working on it]

been really busyy. havent been taking pictures. am losing interest.
screwing up too much papers. skipping morning classes for 3weeks already.
worrying over not getting A's. being an insignificant lil' creature. not working.
spending way too much, & running out of budget.

look at how really pathetically my life is screwing me up.
in short, ii am busy screwing my life, such that ii get screwed up. FML.

HAPPY 22nd BIRTHDAY! :D :D

hello sleeping people. (: (:
it's 4.33am now, and ii just got bored & hell distracted.
UCCDreport is close to completion already (~80%)! :D :D
*happy*

ii ran out of things to do, no one to talk to. damn scary when everywhere is so fcuking quiet. ):
bloody hell, those online one all doing projects also. –_-"

so yes, being boredd & all,
ii came to this space, & have my promise delivered! :D

super love this picture, super love my pink camera! :D :D
ii am so gonna get SATIO (another 12.1 mp camera phone) & Ipod Touch! :D :D

now, back to report. ii am left with cheese's part. + miscellaneous.
ii shall aim to finish by 6a.m! :D :D wee! still damn hyper. :D :D
whoever who see this, please wake me up at 10.45a.m later!
xie xie ni !^_^

hello! hello! hello!
ii think ii slept enough today, so ii am quite hyper now!
haha!

this space really havent been having peektures.
next post, promise. (:

you know, ii so love myself today!
ii love my procrastinations!
ii always do projects last minute (like today, when it is due on friday) :D
ii so love the way ideas only flow in on 2days before submission.
ii so love my brain for only consolidating all the research 2days before submission.
it's amazing. makes me excited & happy!~
[but cfm cannot finish by tomorrow night one, clique gonnna suffer again~]

HAH! ii love busy moments!
it keeps me from thinking of emo thoughts (like SUICIDE?) -_-"
will be so so busy over the next few weeks!
CAs. presentations. projects. projects. presentations. CAs. [And full A's]. :D

now ii will start on my page 6 out of 15 of my report.
ii love myself today~

hello!
ii am so sorry this space is filled with unahppy stuff & emo stuff.
ii predict it will still go on for awhile. bear with me.
ii will be fine fine soon
den ii can buy stickers with smiley faces only, ook? promise. (:

blood blood blood test report is out.
and bloody hell, 5 jabs 5 jabs 5 jabs.
ii called in to ask for my results, & it's like so horrible lo!
the doctor totally say ii got NO antibody at all, not insufficient, is DONT HAVE. -.-
NO antibody = NO immune system. so ii will fall sick very very easily.
(count myself lucky that ii am not exposed to virus & bacteria) -_-"

you cant imagine the sick me right!
ii also cant imagine me whining all day also. HAH! (actually, mayb ii can)

so back to 5jabs. will be taking it as TanTockSengHospital SOON.
well, actually the 5 packets of m&m's for the 5jabs taken still not motivating can?
ii take 5 jabs in exchange for 5 pacs of m&m's. -.-

gastrics issue have been working out worst than before lately.
ii am quite used to the pain already actually. but well, still suck.

And for you, please tell me the truth. ii am prepared, ii think it cant get more painful since it's already that painful now. ii wish ii could vanish into thin air.
never felt this depressed in my 19years of life before.
ii think ii am losing my sanity, & all other motivations. ii am losing myself.

43 things a girl wish her boyfriend knew:
(if you love me, you should totally read this! ii have coloured those impt ones! HAH!)

#1 When you break her heart, the pain never really goes away.

#2 When she misses you, she's hurting inside.

#3 When she says it's over, she still wants you to be hers.

#4 When she walks away from you mad, follow her.

#5 When she stares at your mouth, kiss her.

#6 When she pushes or hits you, grab her tight & don't let her go.

#7 When she starts cursing at you, kiss her and tell her you love her.

#8 When she ignores you, give her your attention.

#9 When she pulls away, pull her back.

#10 When you see her at her worst, tell her she's beautiful. LOL!

#11 When you see her crying, just hold her and don't say a word.

#12 When you see her walking, sneak up and hug her waist from behind.

#13 When she's scared, protect her.

#14 When she lays her head on your shoulder, tilt her head up and kiss her.

#15 When she steals your favourite jacket, let her keep it and sleep with it for a night.

#16 When she teases you, tease her back and make her laugh.

#17 When she doesn't answer for a long time, reassure her that everything is okay.

#18 When she looks at you with doubt, back yourself up with the truth.

#19 When she says that she likes you, she really does more than you could understand.

#20 When she grabs your hands, hold hers and play with her fingers.

#21 When she bumps into you, bump into her back and make her laugh.

#22 When she tells you a secret, keep it safe and untold.

#23 When she looks at you in your eyes, don’t look away until she does.

#24 Stay on the phone with her even if she’s not saying anything.

#25 Don't let her have the last word.

#26 Don't call her hot, but gorgeous or beautiful is so much better.

#27 Say you love her more than she could ever love you.

#28 Argue that she is the best girl ever.

#29 When she's mad, hug her tight and don't let go.

#30 When she says she's OK, don’t believe it, talk to her about it, because 10 yrs later she'll still remember it.

#31 Call her at 12:00am on special occasions to tell her you love her.

#32 Call her before you sleep and after you wake up.

#33 Treat her like she's all that matters to you.

#34 Don't ignore her when she's out with you and your friends.

#35 Stay up all night with her when she's sick.

#36 Watch her favorite movie with her or her favorite show even if you think its stupid.

#37 Let her into your world.

#38 Let her wear your clothes.

#39 When she's bored and sad, hang out with her.

#40 Let her know she's important.

#41 Kiss her in the pouring rain.

#42 When she runs up at you crying, the first thing you say is; "Who's ass am I kicking today baby?"

#43 After she reads this, she hopes one day you'd read it too.

extracted from & credit to:
http://www.facebook.com/home.php?#/pages/43-things-a-GIRL-wished-her-BOYFRIEND-knew-/219996178577?v=info&ref=nf

ii've sent you an e-mail.
if ii meant something still, complete reading it before hitting the close button.

if you call me, to talk to me. ii will accept the call.
if this morning, your call was to scream at me, like what you always do.
den you dont have to call again.
ii wont pick up the call.

takecare boy.
as much as ii wish we could still be the same like three years ago, we cant.

msn pm says:
"if only those broken pieces can be put together with thread & needle.. ."

and someone says:
"den ii will be putting those broken pieces of yours trend by trend, hours by days, to mend it back for your smile."
(ii added in the commas for you already!)

and another someone says:
"I'll stick it back piece by piece using my hands! I wont stop even if it bleeds! (: (:"


thank you, yes thank you! yes it did made me feel better. (: (:
ii am so grateful that ii always have people popping by ever so randomly to talk to me, console me, or whatsoever, anything that ii will probably cheer up a little. (: (:

ii love y'all. (:
ii made up my mind & ii will live my life again.

thou' it wont be easy, thou' it will be painful, but thank god, ii have awesome people around me to keep me companied when ii cant get to sleep, & fabulous people always around me! (: (:
诗莹, 加油! (: (:

P.S: Climate change is upon us. Let's pretend that the world has to cut the number of cars in half, and you've been assigned to take away someone's car. Who's car would you take away?

me: yours. because when you got your car, you sacrificed us.. .
-(to be ignored, completely)-

我很累 很累 很累 很累 我很累 了
我撐著, 撐到麻 了

我决定不愛了.. .


georgiana should just let it go & move on with her fucking life.
georgiana should stop making all the people around her worry.
georgiana should fucking stop upsetting people.
georgiana should focus on mugging, & full A's.
georgiana, please recover in time for projects & exams.

georgiana says thank you for being here.

georgiana says thank you for telling her & allowing her to find out so many things.
georgiana wish you well, & dont get fuming mad or upset anymore!

people do everything for a reason.
just that the things you do, isnt justifiable.

ii took my blood test, probably for the first time in my life.
let's pray my body turns out fine. (: (:
(sounded like ii am plagued with some diseases, but ii am not!) LOL.

thank you for accompanying me to the doctor.
thank you for listening to my rants & unhappiness.
谢谢你!! :D :D


it's 3.39am now. left blogger idling for a good few hours.
you didnt know how that heart aches when ii learn upon so many things.
ii am heading to bed soon~

goodnights!

blog post deleted.
message conveyed across.

ii dont know the degree of truth. ii am mentally & physically drained out.
ii am not updated of anything much.
ii hope there is more workload to tear my body apart.

ii am feeling disturbed. isnt a good thing.
means ii will be irritated easily.

ii should quit reading, too much nonsense.

P.S: ii look high & low for my foolscap, just to realize that ii left it over at your place!!

 

ii love my hair. and the pony tail. :D :D

ii love busy days.
ii love awesome grades & A's. :D :D

weekend was well spent.
at least ii know ii am not at all coping well.

new year eve was spent chasing after the fireworks.
(and luckily, you arrived in time to pick me; and now ii am proud to say for the past 4 new years, ii have managed to catch the fireworks.) :D :D

ii like the way it is. simple.
the way we share toothbrush.
the way we held hands, the hugs & the kisses.
the way we (more or less) shut off contact with (more or less) the world.
the way we just lie on the bed the entire weekend, & watch VCDs.
the together-ness.
the simplicity.

ii love the swings. and the stars. & the soft sand.
荡秋千 helps me wash away that unhappiness;
and how it brought me closer to the stars.
it makes me less upset.

ii love the journeys.
from west to west to central to east, just so sometimes ii am less upset.

ii love the fact that ii always have a bolster to hug. (: (:
ii love the way reassurances are given, just so ii am less upset.


then again, ii am finding it difficult to handle what is going on.
sometimes, ii hate myself for being that intelligent, & sensitive to details.
ii know ii should believe the assurances given. yes, ii should.
ii shouldnt be that childish anymore. it's time to grow up & mature.

make me an angel tonight. take me away take me away take me away.

HAPPY NEW YEAR PEOPLE! (: (:

welcome 2010~
2009 has been great, being blessed with awesome people around me.
And in this year new ahead, let's hope it will be an even better year! (: (:

decided to pen down my new year resolution in my scheduler instead! (: (:
but well, it always revolve around the usual people, the usual academic goals, & stuff. (:

going out soon till saturday night. (: (:
back here soon again! (: