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[ ] Opps, NEW WALLET!
for many reasons tonight from all over the world, ii am feeling a lil' troubled; a lil' upset; a lil' disappointed; a lil' frustrated; a lil' of every negative emo icon possible.
a random picture to share: such a rare occurrence (w/o pooh & piglet). super love it! (:
den ii thought of another: the monkeys over @bukit panjang. LOL. they are babies. and ii superr miss those days.. .
fuck it, life still goes on. superr tiredd.
goodnights world!
rant @ Saturday, December 26, 2009 10:43 PM
ii am still figuring out how to get you out of my heart & head. fact remains, you are still the first to enter & last to leave.
and ii am still horribly upset. just that it can temporarily be taken away some times. extreme mood fluctuations really isn't doing me any good. take me away take me away take me away!
rant @ 3:28 PM
as a guy , you dont go pick a girl up, & go out cruising alone w/ her ; you dont travel west to east, & ended up by a beach gazing at the stars w/ her ; you dont spend almost every night w/ her ; you dont do things that couples do w/ her ,
when you have a girlfriend.
what does this go to show exactly? that you dont fucking care; or this girl is so fucking un-important?; or you cant live a moment without a girl?; or this is the kinda freedom you deserved?
it's a mental note ii am making to myself now. ii am hitting the bed now, after being awake for soon-to-be 30hours.. .
goodnights people!
rant @ Friday, December 25, 2009 1:39 PM
MERRY CHRISTMAS PEOPLE!
alcohol, either bring a person to her highest high or lowest low. brought me to my lowest low.
it is the one time ii got myself so drunk. crapp. hangover is so efff-ing bad now. ii am trying to put together what happened last night now. cant seem to remember a lot. LOL. but thank you zk & ghost. (:
so so so many christmas greetings. ii like ii like. (: (: ii will be back to this space again, soon. (:
rant @ Tuesday, December 22, 2009 11:55 PM
the last night. and the last few minutes of the night. ii look at the windows in my room & through it, at that inclined slope of grass; & thought for the one final time. just one last time.
tonight has ended. tomorrow, a new phase of life flip open & it will be a new beginning.
on a side note, thank you all. people who text-ed me, msn-ed me, called me & fb-ed me to ask if ii am fine. and people who really accompanied me day & night, without fail. & the many running conversations. & the dates w/ boys & girls. (: thank you. love y'all. (: (:
rant @ 2:30 AM
-221209- completed work. yes, it is totally the same as the one in the room; just that it's another piece.
rant @ Monday, December 21, 2009 11:59 PM
is praying that today never ends & tomorrow never comes.
love walking in the rain. :D :D caught avatar 3d today, & somehow ii hope it is even more magical than it is already.
rant @ 1:19 AM
gastrics pain + backbone pain = killer combo. 3 days = 3meals; gastrics hurt like crapp. suck. ok, for backbone part, ii have no idea why it is hurting so badly. maybe because ii havent been sleeping well. ii dont know how is is linked, but someone once told me this.
but anw, ii think ii am dying of pain now. ): ):
And ii am really greatful to you people. really. thank you for now first ok. (: (:
rant @ Sunday, December 20, 2009 4:51 PM
sometimes things just dont turn out the way you thought it would or the way you wanted it, and you have no choice but to take the another route, probably a tougher one.. .
rant @ 11:23 AM
will reply the tagboard, when ii think ii am in a better position to do so. :D sorry!
this is bad this is bad this is bad. ii couldnt get to sleep last night, & my eyes are puffy today! ): ):
ii climb onto bed at 3plus last night, despite not feeling tiredd at all. couldnt sleep. couldnt sleep. counted meh meh also cant sleep. -.-
den when ii soon fall asleep, ii got a bloody nightmare, damn fucking real. ii woke up crying; like tears rolling out of my eyes y'know!! And until now, the whole nightmare still damn vivid, like it really happened. it was like whatt, only 5a.m when ii got up?! den ii wanted to call someone/text someone, but who on earth still fucking awake at that time?! ii dont like sms that has no reply. makes me sad. ): ):
难道日有所思, 夜有所梦? hais.
tossed around the bed. 7a.m still not asleep. seriously felt damn scare from the already damn timid me. only fall alseep when the room was brighter; & before ii knew it, ii got to wake up for work already! BOO!
so now, my eyes are puffy, without double eye-lid.. . suck. And ii am thinking of shutting down this space, because ii have resumed diary writing lately. shall see how. gonna buy a scrapbook later! *happy* :D :D
rant @ Saturday, December 19, 2009 2:08 PM
*grammar edited* (:
back right to this space. :D waiting for 5p.m to arrive, den it's facial w/ mummy! (: (: (:
ii wanna watch avatar 3D! everyone is saying it's awesome!! checked movie time slot & almost every cinema (including my territory's) is more or less fully booked for today. suck! butbut, still, ii wanna get out of the house! today is like the first time ii wanna get out of the house, you know! ii havent been wanting to leave my room for awhile. so anyone? -.-
anw, the next day after ZIRCAday, ii return to school for a photoshoot. it's really a photoshoot (for the school). photographer. lightings. MUA. damn cool. HAH! not too sure if ii will receive the pictures, but (hopefully) so. super like the individual shots! (: (:
some backstage pictures~ :D :D
a MUA's make-up essentials. COOL or what! the brushes alone will cost like 300plus (ii think).
the shoot in progress. group shoots.
this is amanda. (: (:
the whole bunch of uss. (: (:
rant @ Friday, December 18, 2009 12:49 AM
All this time ii was wasting Hoping you would come around I've been giving out chances every time And all you do is let me down
And it's taking me this long Baby but ii figured you out And you're thinking we'll be fine again But not this time around
You don't have to call anymore I won't pick up the phone This is the last straw Don't wanna hurt anymore. - You're Not Sorry, Taylor Swift
this is the one time, ii felt so sure it's time to give up all.
rant @ Thursday, December 17, 2009 1:40 AM
somewhere last week, on a thursday.
at 11.30am, it MARKS THE END OF MSTs! (: (:
we all submitted our papers, with the dbf08 people staring at us, with amusement. HAH!
in no time, the bunch of us are heading to paragon to get donnie's present.
SUPER SUPER BELATED birthday present.
was all too busy over the few weeks, & didnt have the time.
but all's over now!! (: (:
And before we know it,
we are already settled down at sakae sushi waiting for 3pm to strike.
buffet buffet buffet. not a good thing for georgiana.
eats too little. LOL.
the 6 of us: linda, me, sarah, cheese, zeke & donnie :D
And den, it's (work) for me. BOO!
well, it's ok! work --> spend lesser since sarah spend $108 in that few hours.
:D :D
And the next moment.. .
ii am at ZIRCA, with the clique
w/ darling-L pouring shots after shots for us!
the rate we were drinking was like so omg omg omg lahs!
we completed like a bottle in like what, 30mins?!
ok, should let the pictures complete the post & do the talking! :D :D
dancefloor with baby-S :D :D
liquor & ii :D :D
the night post ends with me on the final glass.. :D :D
And once again, pictures consist of my totally screwed-up hair, and ii forgotten how to smile all over again. need to correct my smile & find a good smile again.. . BOO!
CLUBB soon soon again! so addictive! probably eve of christmas!
P/S: more pictures up on fb; only view-able by MYfriends :D :D
P/P/S: bad tiles, but a happy day, today. :D :D (the reason was clear.)
rant @ Wednesday, December 16, 2009 1:11 AM
has a broken little heart. which you mended it using thread & needle. :D :D
rant @ Monday, December 14, 2009 1:45 AM
after )(*&^%$#@years, ii finally went on a dateee with boyf. :D :D we ii have been so busyy. week 5 & 6 over projects. week 7 over mugging. week 8 over exams. and now it's week 9, ii am finally FREEEE!!
ii really thought we have drifted & stuff. but well, .. ... .. . anw, watch new mooon w/ boyf today :D :D badd badd. ii dont really like it; only the romance part was well, nice. storybooks seem better ehh. ii know, whateverr!
dinner over @aijisen. forever at aijisen, & ii forever wont finish my food. -_-" headed over to alan's place to visit meimei after that, before coming back. (:
pictures pictures. :D :D :D this is boyf & ii. :D :D
dinner over @aijisen :D :D
ramen. gyoza. chicken. white fish (w/ one missing piece) –_-“ boyf is like superr hungry, that why only one ramen in picture. BOO!
AND AND:
boyfriend & meimei. :D :D oh yes, meimei is a dog. ii have no idea why it has such an ugly name. HAH!
on a side side side notee,
ii neeeeedddd, so neeeeddd a JOB!! boyf & ii wanna get a couple phone, like 3 years back. should be geting satio tgt. :D ok, ii need to wait. crystal havent 3months old.
phone boyf & ii have 3years back. pretty & damn pretty! :D :D
GOODNIGHTS PEOPLE! :D
rant @ Sunday, December 13, 2009 2:07 AM
*edited* FOR TRUTH: Am in a baddd baddd mood now. need something to vent on, & "Truth" sounds pretty good an idea. (: (:
so lately, this thing has been tagging me on my tagboard throwing me with accusations, apparently something like ii "went steady" with a guy when ii am with boyf, & stuff. claiming that she is telling the truth.
look, ii call it a thing. it's so damn pathetic ii dont even wanna give it a LIFE. think it's a she; talks like a bitch. but well, if you're a guy, you got to be a wimp.
so anw, this thing has been visiting this space on regular intervals. really like less than 24h, more regular than anyone totally. think she is totally obsessed with me. HAH. joke.
to the main point. And so to clarify, bitch, get your facts right, ii DIDNT go steady w/ a guy when ii am with boyf. ii am repeating what you have said, sarah & boyf knew it exactly.
you know how seriously pathetic you are. to be obsessed w/ someone & try retrieving all sorts of information about her. AND WORST, IT'S INACCURATE. [you should totally go learn how to stalk from my stalker friends.]
you are totally one kiddo who is still using "steady" which has ceased from my dictionary after primary six. making me wanna LOL-ed at you, bitch. And why are you even hiding your loser identity & hiding behind the screen making nonsensical remarks?
den you hide behind the computer screen calling me a slut. like joke? you like my cute boyf or something? Or is jealous about my everything? Or just need some attention on you? [there, if you need it, you have it, still fuck you!]
so whichever & whoever you are, you are a slut. it takes a slut to call another a slut. And so, slut, ii am making it clear to you, you can continue tagging, but ii will delete whichever & whenever you tagged. ii have all the time on earth to do all these. (: (:
if you have the time, try fucking yourself. no point coming here & makes people hate me. people who read this space are MY FRIENDS, who are constantly telling me to ignore you; which is what exactly ii am gonna do after this post. (:
so fuck off, S.L.U.T!
great, awesome or whattt?? ii felt so much better now! think ii can totally sleep better now!! it's 3.36am now. goodnights people! thank you to people who tagged & help! love y'all. (: OH YES, THIS IS THE I.P ADDRESS: 202.156.14.101:D :D
rant @ Friday, December 11, 2009 12:01 PM
CONGRATS TO BOYFRIEND!! YOU ARE CURRENTLY OPERATIONALLY READY!! [to protect our mighty small country. (: ]
YOU HAVE ORD-ED! :D :D
p/s: SB achievers' function post will be up next. p/p/s: the "my LOA must be well-utilized" post will be up next as well! (LOA = Leave of Absence) --> inside joke. -.-''
rant @ Wednesday, December 9, 2009 5:13 PM
since you wanted it, ii accept it. your life, your choice. take care & all the best.
soon, you all will know what's happening. ii am fucking tiredd. so dont ask me.
should start on FMRP now, if only ii can even study.
rant @ 12:52 PM
revolution is a word people define as a radical & persuasive change. And in this post, ii call it mugging revolution.
ii started schooling at age 3. kindergarten was a playground ii couldnt find at home. only know what a school is when ii enter primary one; but didnt know what "mug" means.
primary five was the year that ii knew ii got to study hard, but never knew how. flipping textboook pages meant studying hard to me. solving maths problem sums meant a secured A*.
in secondary school, bitching & gossiping meant more to me. paying attention was rare. too fun-driven. failed my maths & science from secondary one to three. nearly couldnt take add. maths. what a joke.
secondary 4. had made a mental note that it was an important year some years ago. thought O levels would be the most difficult exams ii will take in my 16 years of life. but still, it didnt mean ii start revising early. ii was still failing during prelims. it was crapp. but ii studied (eventually) And O levels turn out to be probably one of the easiest exams in my life.
college. ii thought was like secondary school. but, completely different. last minute studying didnt work; & ii never like studying. it was bad. so bad that ii didnt even want to study, this was the reason why ii fared so badly. & why ii withdrew from college.
den today, doing banking & financial services. maybe it was the interest, or that very fact that ii left college that make feel that life is in a way or another screwed, & ii shouldnt ruin it all over again.
but today, ii am mugging harder than anytime in my, now 19 years of life. mugging was a term never used before, but used today. ii remembered vaguely it wasnt that bad in PSLE. Nor in O levels or the one awesome year of college life.
poly modules are easy. & sometimes crappy. but it is the very first time in my life ii am serious about studies (for once). it was a breeze to pass exams now, but it was the distinctions ii am after now.
mugging is defined in too different a way too many times.
ii know it's kinda random, when ii should be mugging on FMRP now. but it hit me so hard that ii felt a need to jot it down. And 2 years later, when ii am doing my degree, ii probably can compare again the differences between mugging in diploma days & degree days. :D :D
on a happier note, ii felt really really happy talking to linda over lunch & stuff today. so much things to talk about!! superr love her!! (: (:
And off to sleep now, before mugging on FMRP tonight. :D :D
rant @ Sunday, December 6, 2009 12:35 AM
this is my 199th post. LOL. on my 199th post, ii wanna remind myself to study corp. finance tmr! -_-"
completed blaw is like completed mugging for everything! ii dont know why, but ii am damn happy after completing blaw. what the fuck, totally. but who cares! gonna DIY facial now & sleep!
till tomorrow, corp. finance! love exams. (a complete joke)
rant @ Saturday, December 5, 2009 12:21 AM
cant describe whatt ii am feeling now. cant find any justifications either.
ii am in a mixture of a-little-upset, a-little-high, a-little-boredd, a-little-sleepy, & A-LOT-OF-STRESS!! why is everyone mugging so hard when georgiana dont even have the slighest motivation to get to her books??!
a random post. just to rant.
p/s: need a haircut. fucking bad haircut, because ii dont like my hair now. tell me how should ii cut it, please!
**strike off because it's too fucking random.
rant @ Thursday, December 3, 2009 11:31 PM
somewhere last week. . .
ii was talking about having a topless party with baby-S. . .
And yes indeed, somewhere last week, baby-S stayed over at my nest. :D :D
yes, this is my nest :D :D
it was the first time baby-S stayed over. was so eff-ing excited.
And true enough, we wrecked havoc, COMPLETELY.
we combed the bedok area over the 2 nights for supper. :D :D
being all high & stuff, we kept laughing non-stop (even on the bus & at home).
when yihao was w/ us, we kept laughing at his crooked nose. super high.
it was as if we consumed some 99% alcoholic drink sorta thing. -_-"
but well, it was damn FUNNN!!
den we woke up early in the mornings for work.
And we talk about renting a place in future & staying tgt. . .
which was really nice to think about. :D :D
we think of going to work together, cooking for each other, chilling & gossipping together & having boyfriends together. . .
it's like, what total best friends are like right!! :D :D
[ And ii wont forget darling-L too! (: (: ]
pictures were taken, too many w/ bare faces which ii shall not scare you people w/.
these are all random pictures taken during the stayover. :D :D
so yes, baby-S is none other than beloved bestie. (: (:
so bestie, ii wanna say you will always be my bestie.
And when you badly need someone, ii will be just a phone call's away. (: (:
we really been through ups & downs together lahs.
from relationship issues to project madness to school work & all. (: (:
super love her! (: (:
p/s: ii am currently still not in the mood to mug. total s.h.i.t.
p/p/s: ii am currently having a bad throat & runny nose & slight fever.
p/p/p/s: And boyfriend doesnt even seem to care. a little upset.
rant @ Wednesday, December 2, 2009 12:20 AM
"you cannot have the best of both worlds at the same time." this is dat simple.
in short, you cant have me as a girlfriend & hide things from me at the same time. they dont come in a package, nor do they complement each other.
it is dat serious. ii hate being taken for granted.
ii said it not the first time, but shall be the last.