if things are meant to be, they will be
ii dont have the ability to change anything
ii'm taking a step at a time..
ytd's post was rather a moment of anguish & agony..
anyway, daytime yesterday wasnt that bad.
woke up early to accompany mummy to metro sales AGAIN!
she got herself 2 more pairs of heels & clothes for dad (:
den cux we spend a lot, mummy got this free massage thingy dere (:
after which, met up with jackson, his brother & mum
FOR SHOPPING AT METRO SALES AGAIN!
this is insane. ii can memorize expo's layout already.
2 families: spending of 1k on clothes that are on SALE.
MADNESS!
anyway, jackson bro got himself a bit of clothes (:
jackson got himself a bermuda & 3 polo tees (:
as for me, ii bought 2 tube tops & a tank top from LEVI'S (:
had dinner at teppanyaki before heading home..
today, had a really heart-to-heart talk to sarahbaby
regarding yesterday's incident..
ii really dont know how ii'm to react & feel..
on one had, ii dont wanna affect sarahbaby
yet on the other hand, she doesnt wanna upset me as well..
ii am at a loss of what to do.
it all came too fast, ii cant absorb.
ii wish time remains frozen, and ii die that instant moment..
met up with jackson after school.
had lunch at PIZZA HUT before going down to airport.
he send me to the airport before heading home
*so sweet riites!*
duty was with ben today.
awesome companion, making duty at the arrivals a FABULOUS one!
had a really good talk with ben
telling him all that had happened, and how ii truly felt.
he said a lot of things.
we concluded similar things as well.
maybe ii should let go, and move on, like what he say.
no point asking anymore.
asking more will hurt me further.
he also has the same viewpoint as me, in a way.
shall not elaborate here. (:
anyway, thank you ben!
Also, we took our monday family photo today!
everyone is present, and zero replacement (:
love my monday peeps!
Ultimately, am ii supposed to ask further?
Or just leave things as it is?
Sarahbaby, a message for you:
ii'm not mad at you. at all.
it wasnt at all your fault. at all.
ii should have better controlled my tears, my emotions.
to tell you frankly, ii really dont know how.
if you ever fall for him one day, go ahead with your decision bax
yes, it'll affect us, a bit here & there, inevitably.
a relationship isnt easy to come by after all, so cherish it
ii treasure this friendship, more than anything.
it wont end this friendship, it isnt this weak riite?
ii'll love you all the same, maybe a lil' less (:
still, be careful.
cux' ii cant forget the message he has left behind.
ii hope ii'm not over-estimating myself.
if you both end up together, wo hui zhu fu ni men
And ii still stick to, it better to hurt one, than three.
so just let me be the one.
it'll only take awhile..
ii believe ever once, someone took my pain for me.
what comes around goes around
let me be the one this time..
ii'm super consoled by the fact that there're still you all:
To Jackson:
thank you for being here.
And the assurance that you'll always be here.
dat was all ii needed, to climb up, pull through.
things arent exactly what you think. really.
it's not all 'bout feelings.
ii'm glad you're here.
And your attempt to make me smile.
greatly appreciated.
you'll be rewarded in return, one way or another, someday..
To Ben:
thank you for the super heart-to-heart talk during the 4hours
greatly appreciated. you should move on too.
it's marvellous having you around..
To Sarah:
thank you for telling me the truth & loving me all the same.
Also, thank you alex korkor, jeremy brother, alicia & jiawei.
the few people ii've shared with & be here for me.
ii love y'all!
