i'm missing you toniite..
right. quite a bit of things to blog in this entry (ii think). ii think this will be the first time on my blog ii'll be mentioning him. And the ii'll still continue to mention 'bout mr. koh. :)
starting from SATURDAY:
DANCE CONCERT!
mahjong session at shaun's place w/ stella, jeryl, samuel & jack. And ii played for jack after he left after 1st round. den den, rush 30dollars cab down for a 10dollars dance concert. stupid me. but ii didnt wanna disappoint everyone. anyway, dance concert was awesome. no regrets, at all. following which, met jackson at town. had been awhile since ii last seen him, and ii sorta miss him alot & also cux' of things that happen in the afternoon. ii'll never wanna throw him alone actually. but at times, ii didnt seem to have much choice. (but now, maybe we'll never meet again..) saw his pretty LV belt. pretty. complement his wallet.
ii knew he didnt feel good that day. And ii felt super bad about it. ii'm sorry ii cant be here.
it's no longer the same when you've her.
SUNDAY:
sweet & short & bad. discovered 7th incident. mug for my CRS, den mahjong session at stella's place w/ jeryl, samuel & shuan. :)
den now TODAY:
shuan prepared breakfast for me this morning & send me to school. :) And the breakfast he prepared is enough fo me to last for 3 meals lahs. And so, sarah & linda helped me with my breakfast so that ii can finish it & return shuan his lunch box.
cab back to east area to meet shuan, jeryl & stella for movie & den dinner @ aijisen, followed by ARCADE! my god. madness. shuan & ii were competing against stella & jeryl at the basketball game. den followed by
Daytona w/ them. AND TADAH, ii emerged champion. damn lucky.
dat's shuan & jeryl competing. :)
watched Quantum of Solace. cant comment bout whether or not it is a good movie. was quarrelling with shuan & super preoccupied with thoughts half the time ii was in the cinema. quite a bit of stuff happened. jackson is demanding for an explanation why ii meet up with shaun instead of him, and concluded ii forsake him, when he didnt exactly bother to let me explain. And the fact is that ii really dont know how to go meet him, see him & talk to him, after the countless stuff that has happened. ii really dont. feel so wrongly accused. plus plus now that ii'm not your girlfriend, and you've got her, why look for me, and after that treat me like shit? flood my inbox with million of messages, and each of his message is filled with vulgarities. wad am ii to say? ii merely wanna remain as wad we're, and talk to each other nicely, with respect. ii told you ii wont probe any further into your relationship and we both lead our lives. but you didnt listen.
a few mintues ago, you called and fucked me upside down again. called my house at freaking late hours when my parents are asleep. fucking inconsiderate. wad am ii to say again, when you call my house to fuck me & force me to decide a time & venue to close our joint account. ii tried explaining that ii'll be very busy tomorrow, but you arent giving any damn about it, and instead ii got screwed. And now ii'm sure tomorrow ii'll be fucking late for school, all thanks to you. ii'm so pissed, you arent even sparing a thought for me.
maybe afterall, everything has gotta end. we cant even be friends, at all. everyone is asking me to let you go, but yet there is some part deep down that prevent me from letting you go, and ii dont wannna let you go. but today, ii dont have anymore choice left. ii've hurt you & so have you. Instead of us blaming each other for the pain we've inflicted on each other,
why not just let us go.
ii wish you all the best.
ii've never ever blame you for anything.
still, ii'm sorry.
take care.
