ii never ever thought ii'll really start a blog. let alone, starting a blog this way..
Thousands of things happened today, and millions of them running in my head now.
ii never thought today you'll leave my life..
To the you who will be reading this..
ii tried calling you after my shower. You told me you would talk to me, through the hours of the night. Yet now you arent answering my calls, at all. It is hurting so badly inside me. You told me you chose to leave cux you love me. You ask me to wait till 18th april 2010.
ii'm willing to wait, but can't you leave me slowly?
Why so sudden did you have to make up ur mind, within the 2hours?
Why did you have to break the news so quickly to me?
ii just wanna live in my world of denial, even though ii know one fine day, ii've gotta face the reality. Even though ii know one fine day, you will still leave. ii never wanna admit this, ii thought ii could at least spend my time happily with you for as long as I can..
Why did you have to dash my hopes?
ii know ii'm at fault for everything that happen. Isn't love all about forgiving & forgetting? Isn't that wad you told me? ii have always thought we were never meant to be, always thought one fine day, ii will stop loving you. Apparently, this isn't true, at all. ii love you & ii love you. ii dont want you to leave. tigger, just one call, or one msg, telling me you dont want me to leave, asking me to stay, ii'll go back to you, into your hands and hug you tighter than never before. just a msg.
ii know it's the naive me acting up again. ii know this will never happen. you told me you'll be back 1year6months later. ii'm left without any choice but to believe every word you say. you ask me to believe you, that you love me, that you left because you love me. ii believe. ii believe that 1year6months later, you'll bring back our pair of haivanas & we'll stroll down the beach together, and sit by there to watch the stars. ii can only hold on now to this glimpse of hope, that you'll return, and our love will rekindle, & burn just like before.
now that there's her in your life, ii need not worry, at all, that she'll hurt you, cux for a matter-of-fact, she wont. And ii know she'll be here for you each & every moment when you are down, and she will be an awesome girlfriend.
still, ii hope, ii'll be the first passenger when you own your car and your bike.
tigger, when ii'm no longer around, please take great care of yourself. please dont act on impulse, please dont get yourself into trouble, in camp and outside.
ii'm still waiting for miracle to appear. ii still choose to believe in love, even after everything..
special thanks to lindybaby, owen brother, yihao brother, quanli my friendly pact, steven, and jeremy brother for everything. your calls, your messages, dey meant everything to me.
AND YIHAO & OWEN WHO ARE WILLING TO TAKE SUNDAY OUT FOR ME.
ii love y'all.
