-the picture album & the photo frame-

ii cab over to his place early in the morning, to meet him, for him. the entire weekend was dedicated to him, to spend quality time together, ad enjoy each other's companion. the day started off with the both of us cuddling in bed, watching VCDs together. ii didnt have the intention to go out, and so we stayed home the whole day, till evening time that we headed to bugis for dinner & arcade. it's a craving for arcade that day.

-dat's me-
-dinner @ bugis w/ my dearest-

den we headed down to HALO BAR located somewhere within the compound of SIM and NgeeAnn Poly. ii got really drunk that niite, and the next morning ii didnt even remember what happened that niite. the most hilarious thing was that ii message him when ii'm beside him. damn funny!

ii slept throughout the whole sunday, the hangover was damn bad. but nevertheless, it felt good, to be able to lay beside him, knowing that he was dere. And that he was hugging me to sleep. ii let myself fall into his arms & get the plentiful of rest ii require so much. it felt so much like the good old days that we're together..

it was only till evening time that we headed to cineleisure for dinner at xinwang, before doing a lil' shopping & heading home. he didnt send me home that night, ii left alone. it was too tedious a journey for him to travel home alone. And ii didnt want that. ii hated to end the weekend, hated so much to. And ii hope every single day, life will be this perfect.

-dinner at xinwang-


FINALE!

firstly, ii'm almost done w/ my blog template, finally!

SUPER BIG THANK YOU TO OWEN BROTHER WHO GO THROUGH SO MUCH EFFORT TO DO UP THE BLOG FOR ME! II'M SUPER TOUCHED! HE DID EVERY THING. SERIOUSLY. AND TRIED TO TYPE LIKE ME!

ii've always been a noob at such IT stuff. And luckily there's owen brother! haha! And ii wanna watch House Bunny w/ him, even though ii dunno if it's still showing. but still, ii love my owen brother! haha!

And this morning, jackson sent me to school, after staying over at my place all night yesterday. he super sweet can, rush all the way to tampines to see me. super touched. *appreciated* THANK YOU! we talk throughout the night cux' ii've been having problem falling asleep lately (which is badd!!), and so, this silly boy, despite being tired & all, accompanied me till ii finally fall asleep close to 4am!

school is boring today. And during gems, christopher gill conducted the lesson based on one word "opinion" throughout the 2 hours, and showing pictures of random people, expecting me to know! ii'm stupid, and everyone knows that, except him.

And now ii finally own a BEBE top!

After school, ii head over to Plaza Singapura myself, alone, to get some stuff (for him). bought so many stuff and ii nearly died from an accident! And ii wanted to cab home from town, but apparently no cab wanna take me, AT ALL! ii got money pay for cab fare okies!

And so in the end, ii took 518 home. :(( (And now, here ii'm ranting to the whole world!)

after everything, yihao brother & ii headed to cityhall & cineleisure to get his newurbanmale slippers changed. And we chill at gloria jean's cafe reading storybook! lol.


Back to yesterday. linda darling & ii went to bugis to lunch. And lunch was on the house, by Aijisen Ramen!

Because linda's ramen got a baby cockcroach in it. freaking disgusting. And luckily she didnt swallow it! And so, we've got free lunch. And dis motivated me to spend on other stuff.

And ii bought 2 polo tees, a camisole, a sweater & a skirt. MADNESS! ii've gotta seriously STOP spending so much seriously!

And on our way to arab street, look wad dis crazy woman did to herself!

she wrapped herself in a shawl in an attempt to remain fair. lol.

anyway, today, 22nd october, our 22nd month together if you can still call it that way.
if 22 isnt a unique number, no number will ever be special to me. ii sent him an mms, he mis-read it. we're always in a different channel. he didnt understand, that 22nd is still unique & special to me. And it will always be. ii've no idea how long this can last, no idea when will 1st be more unique than 22nd. ii'm tired over the numerous quarrels we have each day. quarrel because we care, but it hurts each time dere's a quarrel.

out w/ owen brother & yihao brother today. And at least today is a better day. =D

to owen brother & yihao brother,
thank you, thank you & thank you. ii love y'all so much. thank you for coming out to accompany me today. And that being such good companions. greatly appreciated. ii love y'all so damn much!

ii never ever thought ii'll really start a blog. let alone, starting a blog this way..

Thousands of things happened today, and millions of them running in my head now.

ii never thought today you'll leave my life..

To the you who will be reading this..
ii tried calling you after my shower. You told me you would talk to me, through the hours of the night. Yet now you arent answering my calls, at all. It is hurting so badly inside me. You told me you chose to leave cux you love me. You ask me to wait till 18th april 2010.

ii'm willing to wait, but can't you leave me slowly?

Why so sudden did you have to make up ur mind, within the 2hours?

Why did you have to break the news so quickly to me?

ii just wanna live in my world of denial, even though ii know one fine day, ii've gotta face the reality. Even though ii know one fine day, you will still leave. ii never wanna admit this, ii thought ii could at least spend my time happily with you for as long as I can..

Why did you have to dash my hopes?

ii know ii'm at fault for everything that happen. Isn't love all about forgiving & forgetting? Isn't that wad you told me? ii have always thought we were never meant to be, always thought one fine day, ii will stop loving you. Apparently, this isn't true, at all. ii love you & ii love you. ii dont want you to leave. tigger, just one call, or one msg, telling me you dont want me to leave, asking me to stay, ii'll go back to you, into your hands and hug you tighter than never before. just a msg.

ii know it's the naive me acting up again. ii know this will never happen. you told me you'll be back 1year6months later. ii'm left without any choice but to believe every word you say. you ask me to believe you, that you love me, that you left because you love me. ii believe. ii believe that 1year6months later, you'll bring back our pair of haivanas & we'll stroll down the beach together, and sit by there to watch the stars. ii can only hold on now to this glimpse of hope, that you'll return, and our love will rekindle, & burn just like before.

now that there's her in your life, ii need not worry, at all, that she'll hurt you, cux for a matter-of-fact, she wont. And ii know she'll be here for you each & every moment when you are down, and she will be an awesome girlfriend.

still, ii hope, ii'll be the first passenger when you own your car and your bike.

tigger, when ii'm no longer around, please take great care of yourself. please dont act on impulse, please dont get yourself into trouble, in camp and outside.

ii'm still waiting for miracle to appear. ii still choose to believe in love, even after everything..

special thanks to lindybaby, owen brother, yihao brother, quanli my friendly pact, steven, and jeremy brother for everything. your calls, your messages, dey meant everything to me.

AND YIHAO & OWEN WHO ARE WILLING TO TAKE SUNDAY OUT FOR ME.

ii love y'all.